I'll cry if I want to! Well, luckily I don't want to. =-) I'm 31 today.
Today marks one year since we began the adoption process to bring two children home from Africa. First it was Liberia and we thought for sure we'd have kids home by summer 2006. Then we switched to Ghana and thought for sure we'd have kids home by Christmas 2006. Now we're with Ghana and Ethiopia and hope that maybe in the coming year we can get one of our two kids home, with the last child coming home in early 2008 (by my birthday???).
Wow. One year. It's funny. When we were going through lots of pretty hairy medical stuff with Samren people would always say, "I don't know how you do it!" It always struck us as funny because what else were we going to do? Life goes on, and we even had a good life during what seemed like it would have been an extremely difficult time. In the same vein, I used to look at parents who had long adoption journeys with such awe...."I could NEVER do that!" I would say. It's weird to be entering into the realm of those same parents that I stood in awe of for their long adoption processes. And you know what? I get it now. What else are you gonna do? Give up? Not an option. And life does go on, with lots of fun and good mixed in with the long wait. God gives each of us the strength to get through whatever it is He has in store for us, with the purpose of building us up, not tearing us down. I suppose I should feel special, that God knew I was strong enough (with His help) to get through Samren's yucky medical stuff, and this way too long adoptoin process. =-)
So. One year down--probably another year to go before both of our babes are home. So be it. I will try to have a happy brithday anyway. =-)Anita