You know, I'm sure less than 3 people really care if I post regularly to my blog, but I still feel bad when I post like 2 lame things in a week! And this post is no different I'm afraid. I'm just feeling sort of fried. It's been a bad fibromyalgia week and I am so tired of being in pain. I think that takes the winds out of my sails when it comes to blogging.
I have a great Christian doctor who specializes in conditions like mine. She is more holistic and will not prescribe medications (like Vicodin) that are potentially habit-forming. I appreciate this and am glad about this, although there are times when the non-habit forming medications I take (4 each day and one for if things are worse than normal) just don't take the pain away.
I have a bottle of hydrocodone (vicodin) from when I had the eye infection and I admit that I save those pills for when things are REALLY bad. Sometimes I just so desire to live in my body without pain. Good days are "less pain" days instead of "no pain" days. Tonight I hit my limit and took one of the hydrocodones. Again I must say that I am SO GLAD that my doctor will not regularly prescribe these to me because they work so well that it is easy to see how people get hooked on them. To have just a few hours without pain is such a luxury and if I had unlimited access to them it would be easy to always want to take them. Of course that's not really an answer because it's the type of drug your body gets used to and then your body would want more and more and more.
But for tonight, it is nice to have a few hours of no pain.
P.S. Want to hear something weird? When I'm in Ghana pretty much all of my symptoms disappear (except that my fatigue gets worse)!
Thursday, July 17, 2008