"There is no fear in love. But perfect love casts out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
1 John 4:18
I just read this verse on someone's blog. I really needed to read that verse. Ugh. There are a handful of adoptive families that I know that are so heavy on my heart right now, that I find it difficult to do anything except pray for them. Literally, all day, I want to sit in silence and simply pray. I feel such a burden for them. And I know part of that burden is coming from a place of fear. I fear for them to be heartbroken, or to be further delayed, or to make a decision that they will regret. I boggle my mind trying to figure out what I can do to solve whatever problem they are up against. How can I fix it? How can I move things forward? How can I make a decision crystal clear? I can't. But the Lord can. So I pray.
Lest you think I'm some sort of saint, this is not unselfish on my part. I have personal fears as well. If X happens to _______ family, will they blame me? If Y happens in Ghana adoptions, will I still have a job? If so and so decides choice Z will they blame me in the future if it doesn't work out well?
Right now, I feel helpless. I feel ineffective. I feel week and powerless. This is probably why I feel such a need to pray. Because I'm praying to someone who has all of the power and love and answers that I don't have. Perfect love casts out all fear. The Lord is "perfect love." I pray that He can take this fear from my heart.