Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Not Ghana Go

Well, my upcoming trip to Ghana has been canceled. The plan was for me to escort a child home, which would pay for my ticket. It was a LOT for a family to delay their child's homecoming for a month so that I could go to Ghana. For that reason I sort of kept saying, "Are you sure?" After the tickets were purchased I eased up and really felt like I was truly going to Ghana. It felt real. But sometimes things that seem too good to be true, are.


For very good and very understandable reasons, the family has decided that they want to travel to pick up their son. The decision has been made. My ticket has been canceled. I have no anger at all towards the family. It makes total sense. They are doing what is right for their family. It is RIGHT for their family. How could I ever be angry about that?


No anger. But sadness? Yeah. A lot of that. Goodness, I just want to sob. Well, if truth be told I have been crying, just no sobbing yet. [I'll save sobbing for later tonight.] I was getting so excited. Plans were falling into place. Meetings being set up. Celebrations to attend. A chance to teach a group of orphans about what adoption is. Re-organization of sponsorship program. Adoption program development. All that sort of fun stuff. It was coming together.


Blech. I need to get there. A few years ago when the economy was different this wasn't an issue. My agency just paid for me to go a few times a year. But things are different now. There is no extra money to send me--at least not right now. If I want to go, I need to figure out a way to get there.


I was JUST telling one of my friends in Ghana that the Lord always sort of whispers when it's time for me to go to Ghana. It's like this itch that won't go away. When the family initially told me I would be going to Ghana in March, I had a hard time believing it. Now, everything points to me NOT going to Ghana anytime soon, but I have a hard time believing it. I just know there's got to be a way for me to get there in the next few months. I look forward to seeing how the Lord will provide.


Love,

Anita

2 comments:

Mama D.'s Dozen 1:51 AM  

So sorry. God will make a way, in His time.

CarrieT 8:06 AM  

I am so sorry, Anita. You obviously have a deep love for Ghana and the people, especially the children, there. I hope you can go soon.

I have a question. Do you feel this love for the countries where your other children were born? I know you work with Ghana adoptions still and not adoptions from those countries. All my kids are from the same country (Korea) and I always wonder how you families with kiddos from different countries deal with learning about culture, birthland trips, etc. Please understand I am NOT JUDGING! Just curious, especially if we ever considered adopting again. We have aged out of the Korea program so we would need to look at a different country. My hubby and I feel such a pull toward Korea because of our kiddos that I wonder how I would feel if we adopted from another country someday. Would I feel that same feeling then for that country?

Carrie T.